I am writing this letter to first give you thanks for everything you have done for my children, my husband, and me.Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your wonderful creation called Earth. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. Thank you for sending your only son to die for my sins. Thank you for the challenges that have made me stronger. Thank you for teaching me how to love and how to live. And thank you for helping me keep my faith in you.
God, I want to ask you to please cure the illness that is inside of me. Please heal me from this cancer. I am not ready to leave this place just yet. You see, I have too many things left to do and too many people depending on me to be here.
Father, I have three perfect angels (of course you know this) that you allowed me to borrow. They need me just as much as I need them. I have to be here to watch them grow up. I am their teacher....and they need me to finish teaching them. They are my entire world. I don't really know how they would survive without their mother.
My mom...she needs me too. I am her confidant. We talk about everything. She is my best friend. It would literally break her heart if I was no longer here. She just survived a massive heart attack...I cannot be the reason her heart breaks. We need each other. She is my lifeline.
My husband is childlike...and I do mean that in the best way possible. He lost both of his parents to cancer. He has no-one but the children and me. He is my best friend. He needs me to help him stay on track, to offer him encouragement, to show him how much he is loved, and to be his nagging wife. He would literally be a complete wreck without me.
There are so many things I long to be a part of...so many places I have yet to visit. I have hopes and dreams that I am determined to make happen. If I must have lung cancer, please give me the strength to fight and win this battle. I do so much want to be a part of your heavenly kingdom, just not right away. I know you understand. You have blessed me with such an amazing life....and you have made me a strong woman. I cannot win this battle without you by my side.
I hope I am not asking too much from you. I am simply asking for more time. I have this dream of growing old with my dear sweet husband...rocking on the front porch watching our grandchildren play in the yard and visiting with my grown children. I want to make that dream come true Please just give me the strength to fight back. My body has been so weak over the past year...and I know the odds of lung cancer, but I also know about your miracles and I have faith that you will heal me. My faith has become stronger since I have been ill...and I thank you tremendously for helping guide me back to you. Thank you for living so strongly through my son. And thank you for healing me...because I have faith that it has already been written.
Faithfully Yours,
Shanna <3
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