A Day Like No Other

The original version of Stand Strong You Are Not Alone

Stand Strong You Are Not Alone

I call you a survivor, because that is what you are. There are days when you don’t feel like a survivor and there are days when the memories trigger your past and it feels like you are losing the fight – but you are not. Take the past and heal with it. You are strong. I want you to know that the abuse was not your fault. It does not matter what age it happened. You did not deserve it, you did not cause it, and you did not bring it on yourself. You own no shame, guilt, or remorse. In your life, you have faced many demons but look around you and you will see there is hope, and there is beauty. You are beautiful, You are loved, there is hope. You deserve to be loved and treated with respect. You deserve peace and joy in your life. Don’t settle for anything less than that. God has plans for you. Your future does not have to be dictated by your past.

Each step you take you are not alone. Stand Strong.

   I really wish I would have found this yesterday. I really could have used these words to help me get through my emotionally draining day, but hey, better late than never, right? 
   So, today I feel so much better! I spent the day with my mom (just what I needed). We went grocery shopping, paid bills, and ate lunch together. It was so nice to just get out of the house and spend time conversing with my mom. It honestly helped my entire mood. I came home happy. I guess I don't need that room all to myself, after-all. 
   I vacuumed, dusted, and did three loads of laundry. I was smiling all day. I had a wonderful day with Kevin and the kids and of course my mother. I really needed today more than even I knew. 
   I think I am finally beginning to accept all of my illnesses. Acceptance is not the same as giving up. I realize that this is a lifetime and that I will never fully be healthy. I realize that one-day, these illnesses will eventually be my demise. But, I am not giving up. I don't give up. I don't quit. Do I have bad days? Do I wish things were different? Do I get depressed? Of course I do because I am human. At the same time, I know that God has something huge planned for me and that He is not quite finished with me yet...and that gives me hope.
  Kevin got offered the full-time position at the company he had been working for through a temporary agency! This is a man that truly has had God work on him. He has completely changed his entire life. He was a man that never worked...and lied all of the time. God truly spoke to him and he has worked harder than he ever has in his life. He is a wonderful provider and is even going to college to become an Accountant. I could not be more proud of him. So, if God can work such a miracle on him, He can do the same thing for me.
   I appreciate everything I have. Even when I am stuck in the dark (like yesterday), I am grateful that I can see the light at the end of tunnel...however small that light may be. I am grateful that I have a roof over my head and have managed to keep my house for over a year. I am grateful that I have so much love in life. I am grateful for my precious dog who always knows when I don't feel good...she literally lays at my feet when I am sick. I am grateful for all the hugs and kisses I get from my kids and Kevin every day. I am grateful for the calls from my mom. I am simply grateful to be alive. And I am grateful that I have become closer to God since I became ill. He has truly helped me get through the hardest of days.
   Tomorrow morning, I cannot wait to wake up and enjoy my wonderful amazing coffee on my back porch with Kevin when he gets home. I cannot wait to wake up and see my kids smiling and give me kisses good morning. I just cannot wait for tomorrow....because every single day is a blessing.