I emailed him back simply telling him that I was happy he had found someone to love and may God bless him and make his heart kinder. That email managed to get me blocked. which really did not hurt my feelings at all. My cancer has changed my appearance quite a bit. My face is puffy and my hair refuses to grow. Do I still believe I am beautiful? Yes I do because again, God doesn't make mistakes. What one manchild sees as ugly, my husband sees as the most beautiful woman in the world. But really, what defines beauty?
Our world has become so blind to true beauty. People have become cruel and cold. Some even callous and malicious. Kids in school are getting bullied more now than they ever have before (which is why I home-school). Every day, God loses more and more believers....and with that, the world becomes hateful and evil. If people would stop the hate and start focusing on loving people more, they would be able to see all things beautiful.
Beauty is all around us. It is in the birds chirping in the mornings, the sunrise, the trees blowing in the wind. Beauty is you, and beauty is me.
Beauty is not defined as fancy clothes, the perfect body, and the perfect hair. According to Dictionary.com, beautiful is defined as: having beauty; possessing qualities that give great pleasure or satisfaction to see, hear. think about, etc; delighting the senses in the mind. Beauty is everything that wakes up your senses. Beauty is whatever you think beauty to be.
As a child, I was bullied all of the time. I was bullied because I was nice and naive. I allowed people to tell me that I was ugly or fat or stupid. And these tormentors made living extremely difficult for me. I was unable to complete simple tasks because I gave these people so much power. And my daughter, she did the same thing. Their fault was the bullying, our faults were allowing them to take our power away and believing the horrible words that would come out of their mouths.
I used to look in the mirror and see an ugly, useless human being staring back at me. Now that I have cancer, it has changed my definition of beauty and I see a beautiful woman who has more love in her heart than she ever had before.
Yes, cancer has definitely changed my appearance, and although I may look different, I still see a beautiful and brave woman. I find beauty in all of God's creations..yes, that includes you. The next time you think you do not fit the beautiful category...repeat after me...."God doesn't make mistakes". You fit in just fine. Don't ever let someone else tell you otherwise.
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