I Really Should Start Listening to My Body

   Last night was amazing! Kevin took me out to eat a nice dinner at Logan's and then we met up with our friends to sing some Karaoke. It was great to just get out of the house. And trust me, I sang my heart out. But, I really should have listened to my body before we decided to go out.
   I woke up yesterday feeling nauseous and extremely exhausted. I spent the majority part of my morning resting. By early afternoon, I was feeling somewhat better which is why we decided to have a date night. We went for our daily lunch of Spicy Chicken Burritos (Taco Bell doesn't offer these anymore so we have them specially made just for us) and Dr. Pepper. After we ate our lunch, we stopped at my mom's to visit for a few minutes and play with her Lasso, Harmony. She is the cutest dog you will ever see (don't tell my dog on me please...she has a jealous streak). While I was at my mom's, I began feeling extremely fatigued and just had a general feeling of malaise. I hugged my mom when we went to leave and of course, like all good mother's do, she felt my forehead to see if I was running fever. And of course, I was....and it was pretty high. I should've listened to my body, but I am bullheaded in the worst way.
   Against my better judgment, we went out anyway. Mind you, I wouldn't trade our night for anything in the world, but today my body is literally screaming profanities at me. I woke up with my lymph nodes on both sides of my neck extremely swollen. My fever is up to 103, my throat is swollen, my joints are aching, and again, I am extremely nauseous. I am 35 years old trapped in an 80 year old woman's body. I cannot even begin to tell you just how frustrated I am with constantly being sick! 
   Today, I get to spend my time laying in bed and writing all day. Thank God Kevin is off today! He is such a lifesaver on my extremely bad days. He is going to cook us dinner tonight and make sure the kids have some quality dad time. I really dislike having to be cooped up in my house. I have always been a person who was always on the go....and would take every moment to be outside or just be among the general population. 
   I am so grateful to have a supportive spouse, three amazing children, my beautiful mother and my step-father, and friends I wouldn't trade for the world. I am grateful to Kevin for being able to pick up the slack when he can and doesn't get mad at me for my health problems. There's a reason that traditional marriage vows mention that "in sickness and health" part- it is hard on a marriage/relationship when a spouse gets sick. Terminal illness is life-changing for both partners. Don't get me wrong- I am not grateful for my illness, just for having an incredible spouse, kids, family and friends.

   P.S. These pictures are from our date night and of course I had to throw in a picture of my mom's Lasso.